I honestly feel like a crazy person, coming back a week later to make a diary entry lmao. I just get a little crazy when D is involved specially now that I've grown and moved on, I just find myself missing him. I am doing better tho. I had a good weekend and I have a date with my baby this weekend so I'm not even worried about D. I am getting ready to move at the end of the month, so I'm a bit nervous and excited.
I talked to D all night and I feel so guilty but at the same time I don't feel anything. I can't explain the mixed feelings honestly. We sat there talking about how things use to be and about how we feel about the past, it all just made me feel deja Vu. I don't have feelings for him anymore but its crazy to think about him now that I'm older. I haven't talked to him in a year and now he's telling me to call him whenever and that he misses me some days.
I haven't wrote a diary entry in a little while but honestly I don't think I've had much to write. I've been having working on my book and I'm very excited to have it out and read. It'll be a little while before it comes out but I'll be posting things regarding certain topics. Aside from that, I've been really excited about my wedding. I know it isn't for another 2.5 years but I've been thinking about my dress, playlists, flowers. All those fun details. I don't think i'll get a planner, I think I might do it myself since it isn't a big wedding lol. Im enjoying having a routine and waking up to a new day. I want to finish Section 2 of my book by the end of this week, as well as, lose 5 pounds.
I'm so happy to be back on my blog again. I don't get sick often so when I do, I feel like its the end lol. I've been thinking about my next move and I'm nervous. there is so many factors BUT I'm excited to be taking every next step. I think that is just apart of doing something new in life. It's scary and uncharted. I'm gonna post everyday this week. I want to push myself to prove people wrong. I'm going to also draw today. I haven't made much art and I need too. I need to get my art store off the ground and I can't wait for it to just happen.
08/24/26
I spent the day out and getting lunch with my mom. And the conversations we had were top notch. I think it is very important to know who you are and what you like about yourself. I realized that I've shed a layer of negativity today and I don't ever want to feel like I did before. I'm beyond excited for my next chapter in life and I hope that whatever there is to come, I live it with peace and happiness＼(^o^)／
I've found myself figuring life out these past weeks. lots of ups and downs but in the end I know I'm doing the right thing. I think as young women, people expect us to either want a lifestyle of social norms or to go against them. I think in the end I just want to be happy. life isn't just about money or success. I want to enjoy love, friendship, and watch the sun set and rise. I've been upset recently about not having many friends or getting out of the house and I was telling myself that I'm overreacting but its so normal to want to connect with people and not be alone all the time.
I say all this to say, enjoy life. I'm not going to say its short or you only get one but you should enjoy all the small moments as much as the big ones. you'll start to realize that they're just as good lol.
08/11/26
Im working on the blog again after a week or so. I've had no computer charger so I haven't been able to work as much as i'd like too. ANYWHO I can't wait for people to see the blog!! I'm putting my whole heart and tears into it. (η¬ΒΊ‿ΒΊη¬)♡
08/10/26
This is my first entry! So I'll do another introduction for good measures lol.
My name is Yahna, I'm 19 and a aspiring artist✨
I've been drawing for over 6 years and I've decided to lead with my art now. I love music like it runs through my veins lol.
I'm a April Aries, so I'm very passionate and creative. I put my whole foot into the things I want to doπ
I don't like mushrooms and people who can't imagine. I think you should have an imagination regardless how old you get.
I'm a JJK AU glazer and I can't stop myself..
I think that's all I got today:)
07/29/26
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